{"id":2779,"date":"2017-07-18T18:59:02","date_gmt":"2017-07-18T18:59:02","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.fernandocc17.org\/blog\/?p=2779"},"modified":"2017-07-18T18:59:02","modified_gmt":"2017-07-18T18:59:02","slug":"hey-there-zoey","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.fernandocc17.org\/blog\/personal\/hey-there-zoey\/","title":{"rendered":"Hey there Zoey"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Read the title as if it were &#8220;Hey there Delilah&#8221;<\/p>\n<div>I dont know if u remember I have this blog(I remember u wanted me to put more personal stuff here, so consider urself served), so I dont know if u will ever read this(maybe u put something to check for u? -does people still uses feeds?-or even for Zoey or a tag&#8230;BTW I didnt know I have a tag =) ).<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>Thanks for being there for me lately, I love u, I always will, u have been my kindest relationship and more &#8220;adult&#8221;.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>I&#8217;m under a lot of changes, thanks for being there for me, as a beacon or as an island or as a mirage or I dont know, as urself.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div><span style=\"font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, sans; font-size: large;\">Sorry for not being there on Sunday,I didnt forget but as we have discussed, u never actually said yes or no(Cesar will be piss at u&#8230;more than to me) but that wasn&#8217;t the real reason I didn&#8217;t went, truth be told I don&#8217;t know where I&#8217;m with u(as with basically every other facet of my life), as I told u on April 30(According to ur blog =) ), I cannot simply be around urself and act as a normal person, I mean I can but I feel\u00a0awkward\u00a0and I know u can feel me like that and I know u feel awkard 2.As I told u when we went to see the gnome, I wanted to stop seeing u in a hurry, I wanted like &#8220;garbage time&#8221; with u, not just &#8220;quality time&#8221; or getaway time as we haven been for so long but with all the things going on my life, I just didnt want to drag u into it u deserve better and more than that; we broke up a few years ago for some differences I saw and thought we wont be changing on ourselves but I feel like u changed them now but I can&#8217;t trust myself to make such an important decission to come back right now, I dont feel ready and I could end up hurting u( I can live with my own pain but I cannot be at peace if I know I harm u in any way or u lost an opportunity cuz of me).<\/span><\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>I wanted to invite u to a getaway weekend now that u will be on vacations, I wanted u to choose the place and I could drive us there or take a cab or a plane or whatever, I just wanted to get away and be with u but now I can&#8217;t; I want exactly the same thing as u want, I want to feel excited to go out on a date with a new person, get to know her and stuff, that kind of thrill, how could I get in the way of that for u? when I&#8217;m not sure about anything anymore.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>I feel like u wanted me to take the &#8220;first step&#8221; some times, I mean &#8220;first&#8221; cuz it was guided by u at the end, I think it was ur way of saying &#8220;stop to get urself a coffee cuz I want to go to the restroom&#8221; but since we agreed we won&#8217;t do that kind of stuff(and for what I was feeling) I didnt do it, I felt like it won&#8217;t be fair 2U&#8230;and I know that if u ever read this and see me face2face u will headbutt me &#8217;til I die(#dramaQueen)&#8230;I cannot how different we r and how alike at the same time.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>I hope u enjoy a lot this stage in ur life, that everything is what u want and need, dont look back at me and take all the space u need, I wont held that against u, u deserve the best 4u and I know currently I&#8217;m not that.I also believe I just need time to settle down and get myself together again, so who knows maybe we will see each other again.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>In the end, I trust that in the dots will connect for our good, be that we come together or that we end up with another SO but I know than in a way we will always be together.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>.t.h.a.n.k.s<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>P.S.1\u00a0BTW, thanks for not being Zoey anymore, u r just a happy sheep now =).<\/div>\n<div>P.S.2 Thanks to this I will have to put a lot of entries now!<\/div>\n<div><span style=\"font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, sans; font-size: large;\">P.S.3 Why that\u00a0decision\u00a0after 2 PM was the worst?<\/span><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Read the title as if it were &#8220;Hey there Delilah&#8221; I dont know if u remember I have this blog(I remember u wanted me to put more personal stuff here, so consider urself served), so I dont know if u will ever read this(maybe u put something to check for u? -does people still uses &hellip; <a href=\"http:\/\/www.fernandocc17.org\/blog\/personal\/hey-there-zoey\/\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">Hey there Zoey<\/span> <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.fernandocc17.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2779"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.fernandocc17.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.fernandocc17.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.fernandocc17.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.fernandocc17.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2779"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/www.fernandocc17.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2779\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2780,"href":"http:\/\/www.fernandocc17.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2779\/revisions\/2780"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.fernandocc17.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2779"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.fernandocc17.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2779"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.fernandocc17.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2779"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}